i think i'm finally going to kill myself. i've stopped taking my antidepressants because they don't help, they make me feel worse, and i'm just ready to go. i can't deal with these feelings anymore. i feel like i'm drowning. i can't talk to anyone anymore, i feel like such a burden and i doubt every word i say and action i make. my stomach hurts, i'm so anxious, i just.. i can't. i can't do it anymore. but i'm so scared, death is so scary. it'll hurt, i know it will. i have two full bottles of my medicine, but google says they're not likely to kill me unless i drink alcohol with them, and alcohol makes me puke. i don't know what to do. i just want to leave. f*c*.
By joe438 +1 published in Wednesday, 02 September 2020