I find myself nervous about talking to people, afraid that I will chatter on too much and be bothersome. My friends think that it's a silly notion, and they care for me. They just don't know that my mom was constantly ridiculing me for talking, when I was young. When I was six, she thought to have a "joke" at my expense, in front of her friends. She grabbed hold of me, and tried to hold me down to sew my mouth closed, with a sewing needle. She and her friends laughed while I screamed and cried, trying to get away, while she pinned me down. I became a very quiet child, and an anxious adult.
By Jlhl +15 published in Friday, 28 February 2020