One night I was curious about how it would feel to have someone touch my penis. So I asked my brother to do it while I touched his. He is 14. We did it. I'm now experiencing the worst feelings of guilt and sadness I have ever felt in my entire life. No need to tell me how fu*k*d up this act is. People do weird things when they're aroused. Keep in mind I want aroused by my brother nor am I g*y. I was just curious. I know I'll never do it again but the feeling is just eating away at me. It's especially bad at night and I feel like I'm going to explode. The feeling of distress and anxiety will leave me for a few minutes and then will rush back with all it's fear and anguish. Hindsight is always 20/20. I know this may be illegal but I'm not sure since we're both minors and there want any actual s*x. I'm in the US by the way.