Male, 18
Sunday, 23 February 2020

I'm getting confused about my gender. I was born male, I grew up as a boy, and am now a young man. Although I was never really all that manly and am relatively feminine in personality, I never had a problem identifying as male. But sometime last year I started having actual fantasies about being female. The thought of being a girl legitemately turns me on. I sometimes want to let my feminine side shine physically. I sometimes want to wear girly clothes. I sometimes want to be s*xy and slutty and seductive in ways I can't be as a guy. But... I'm still comfortable identifying as male. It's not like I feel like being a female is the identity I didn't get at birth. It's just a fantasy. One that I'm not sure if I really want to turn into reality, because while I do love the idea, there are still some things that make me want to keep things as they are. For one, I'm a hetero man and therefore am attracted to women, and would still like to be in a heteros*xual relationship with a girl, something I haven't had yet. In addition to that, transitioning at this point would be a completely life-altering process, one that I don't know how to come to terms with, how to explain to everyone who knows me as who I am, or whether it'd even be worth it or not. I really don't know what I should do or think about this. But I need to put this out somewhere. Some advice would be cool too, I guess.