had s*x with my neighbor this morning on her back porch while it was raining and while my wife was sleeping. i was outside smoking a cigarette and then i seen her come out with a robe on nothing underneath and we were chatting some then the next thing i know i am totally n*de and she is bent over a table and i am having s*x with her from behind no c*nd*m. then i went in my house took a shower and went to work. not even sure why i keep doing it honestly and even though it was dark out if someone would have turned a light on in the other houses we would have been seen. i am actually feeling guilty over it now especially since she has a boyfriend now. i just don't know how to say no. if my wife ever finds out it will destroy her.