My boyfriend has started to dress like an old man. When we first met his style wasn't that great either but, as he met more people his style improved and I started thinking he was kinda hot. From them we started dating and it has been a good bit of years now but, now he has changed his look completely out of nowhere. I have told him before that it is kind of a turn off for me since when I look at him he reminds me of a grandfather even if it is just for a moment and it puts me out of the mood. I still love him a lot but, I find myself fantasizing about other men/women now instead of him and that is the only way I can get aroused now. I don't want to leave him and I refuse to cheat so I mas*ur*ate a lot to fulfill my s*xual desires. Like I said though, I often fantasize about other men and while I know it's not technically cheating I still feel really guilty about getting off to the thought of other people f*c*ing me.