I never realized I have ADHD until I entered University. When I finally realized it I told one of my closest friend about it. But she doesn't seem like she care or understand whats my problem. I have social anxiety, ADHD on top of that depression. My life is a mess. I want to die but I'm scared of dying. Cutting myself looks painful and the scars will be permanent. I don't want to seem edgy and look like I wanted attention. I just hate my life. I don't want to be judged. I just want to escape reality. I know I'm a coward. Even if I cried I hide it from everyone. Nobody ever seen me cried since I was 15. I am weak.